It’s another celebratory 10k worth of hits! I’m pretty happy that I am able to share my work with so many of you. At some point at the beginning of the year, some of you may have noticed a sudden change in the way I blogged, if I even blogged at all.
I was having trouble finding any reason to post anything. Photoshopping figures felt kind of meaningless as I realized I wasn’t doing it for the joys of creating photoshop images, but was doing it for the sake of getting attention. This was wrong. This was not what I wanted. I wanted to share, and I wanted to share it with as many people as I could.
Somewhere along the way, that line blurred, and I began linking the number of hits to the results of my work. When I noticed that the hits kept coming even after I stopped posting for a while, the hits became meaningless, and so did my work. As well, I noticed a drop in the number of comments I got to some of my posts. This only added to my depression and made me question whether or not it was all worth it. Like Shino, I was very tempted to give up on blogging entirely.
I had forgotten that I posted my reviews and my photoshop work to share with everyone. I was still teetering on the brink as I was posting sometimes, but it really did feel like posting for the sake of posting. It wasn’t until I read Shino’s new blog entry that I felt something important had left me, and that I needed to get it back. In a way, Shino was the one that brought me back, and for that I’m truly grateful for.
A few commenters on Shino’s blog seemed to echo the same sentiments, but were able to find their way. As such, I’m back now. My reason to share has come back, and that reason is the pride I have in my own work, and the passion I have for my work. The passion I have for this hobby is what I want to share. In my own way, and by my own standards. The hits really don’t matter. Just as long as I’m able to do what I like doing, and be able to share my joy of doing it with you all.